Sorry for the long absence, life has been happening in the usual chaotic way with busy Little Pegs Clothes having fantastic photo shoot - I will blog about that more soon once the pictures are all polished, fairs in Bristol and Cheltenham where it has been great to show off our fantastic new Magnificent baby - magnetic baby grows.
On a completely different note October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I am busy building my newest baby -Little Pegs Clothes - and it makes me even more keenly aware of the other babies in my life. So I thought I would share some of my personal journey as so many of us are challenged to become mums.
My first pregnancy resulted in my darling boy. He is an IVF miracle, who is constantly amazing me with the view of the world through his fantastic toddler eyes. My second pregnancy was an exciting natural conception. We were overwhelmed with feelings of shock and the usual first trimester nausea combined with real joy that we had not had to endure the challenges of another round of IVF. Our 12 week scan was thrilling and a chance to really believe this was happening to us. Unfortunately at 15 weeks I felt really ill my waters broke and suddenly I am being admitted to the gynae ward for a night of almighty loneliness and confusion. Two years ago almost to the day I miscarried our second little baby-in-making, a horrid emotional and unexplainable time. I will never love that little baby less and have missed getting to know it and watch it grow.
My heart breaks again every time I hear of another mummy who is going through a similar emotional heartbreak and unfortunately it seems to happen all the time. I was amazed at the support I received from friends and family who nearly all had a tale to tell of a pregnancy that had not gone according to plan. Thank you again to all those who listened and helped me deal with our tragic loss.
We have been blessed with a third (natural) pregnancy and my daughter has been a joyful addition to our little family, she does not replace my lost little baby but has helped me move on.
If you need any support I found this website helped me http://www.sayinggoodbye.org
Thanks for reading.